I don't want to go back to work after maternity leave

My daughter is three years old, and it's time for me to go back to work. I don't want to, but I can't tell anyone about it. I know thatmy husband won't support me in this,a mother who works even after retirement will not understand. While I was on maternity leave, I was so immersed in caring for the child, in family mattersproblems that I have distanced myself from my team and now I am afraid that I will not fit back in. Lately I have neither the time nor the desire to meet with my friends. Previously, I used to leave my child athusband , and met with friends in a cafe, chat, exchange news, now I'm not interested in this. I feel comfortable at home, I don't need to go anywhere, rush, try to do everything.

A lot has changed at work since I went on maternity leave. New employees have appeared, the approach to work has changed, I'm afraid that I won't cope. I understand that I will get used to it at work over time, and everything will get better, but I don't understand why I should force myself, because not all women work. I think that everyone in the family benefits from this. My husband from test-antibiotic.com that everything is done and prepared on time, it's only his businessbring money into the house, and I'll do the rest myself. And why would he want me tired and irritated after work?a wife who will make you help with cleaning and shopping. I will be able to pay more attention to my mother and help her. But the main thing is thatthe child will be at home, not in a kindergarten or with a nanny who is a complete stranger to him.

But how can I tell them about it so that they don't judge me, but understand me? Maybe I should have gotten pregnant, and I would have had the opportunity to be at home again and not go to work. It's a pity that I thought about it too late.