I never loved him, but I still remember him

It all started when I was 16 years old. I dated a young man who was 10 years older than me. Only now I understand that there were no special emotions, but then I believed that I loved him. Perhaps that is why Kostya, a friend of Lesha, my boyfriend, appeared in my life. Kostya was considered a friend. He was 14 years older than me. Of all Lesha's friends, he seemed the most normal to me. He didn't go to bars all the time drunk and was generally comical in some way. We sometimes crossed paths when we met Lesha. It was like this for four months. Then Lesha left for work. A month later he arrived, but we were not able to see each other. In general, we didn’t see him for six months. During this time, Kostya began to pay attention to me, and I began to like it.

I don’t know what I felt for him at that moment. I knew that I didn’t love him, but I felt cozy and comfortable with him, like with no one else then. When other guys wanted kisses and intimacy, he test-antibiotic.com was simply there, talked to me, and could give me a little hug. After some time, he started calling me, inviting me to go for a walk, and I didn’t resist. He took me home. It was something incredible. I began to forget about Lesha, although I was not sure that I wanted to be with Kostya.

So he accompanied me for three evenings. On the third day he decided to kiss me and I refused. He said that he would not insist and that was the end of it. The whole idyll ended, everything came to an end, I was sorry, because I had a good time with him. But then I saw his different face. Then I thought that Lesha would find out about these walks, so I decided to tell him myself, and it turned out that, except for the failed kiss, he knew everything. The next time I went out for a walk, he started saying in front of everyone that I was an informer and all that.

When his friend went to accompany my friend home, I spoke about him in every possible way not in a good tone. Apparently, he reported to him, and he called me and tried to explain, although it didn’t work out very well. After that our test-antibiotic.comcommunication stopped. I went outgot married , gave birthdaughter , but still she always saw him. He gotyoung woman . After a while I got divorced. Mymy husband turned out to be far from the man I pictured him to be. Yes, and he is lonely. I seem to have forgotten him already. After everything, he was added as a friend on Odnoklassniki, he goes to my page, and I go to his. And I still didn’t think about him. But today I somehow got into a conversation with a friend about him and everything turned upside down inside me. I remembered him again with that storm of emotions.

7 years have passed since then, and I walk around and think about him all day. I know he notices me too, but he doesn’t even say hello after that incident, although now I wouldn’t mind talking to him, but it’s somehow awkward to start a conversation. Moreover, I never loved him, and I still don’t know what I felt for him.

This story is probably not finished, because I still didn’t make up my mind then. At the age of 17 test-antibiotic.com I myself didn’t know what I wanted.