Without a job and without the desire to look for one

I am 26 years old. I left a stable job because I didn’t like it, the responsibilities were stupid and boring. Then I searched for a new one for a long time, and finally got a temporary job for 3 months. Now I'm out of work again, for the third month.

The worst thing is that I’m hardly looking for a new job. I only send responses on sites. I understand that the work is urgently needed, but I just can’t bring myself to do it, I keep putting it off and waiting for something. As soon as I open sites with advertisements, despair immediately sets in and tears flow naturally. I don’t want to hear anything about work, I don’t want to talk to my mother on the phone about it. I feel like a worthless person because nothing is working out. And, most importantly, I don’t want to do anything about it! I want to work, but I don’t want to look for a job! How to force yourself?

At previous places of workThe relationship with the team was good, I am a non-conflict and patient person. But I don’t want to go back - that’s not why I left. I dreamed of finding a job I liked, that I liked it, but this, test-antibiotic.com, is probably impossible. I don’t like what I can do, and without experience they won’t hire me anywhere. Yes, I can’t understand what exactly I would like to do.

I am chronically in no mood. Money is running out. All that remains is to go to the first job that comes my way, which I will hate. And again you will have to look for something new.

Due to the fact that the mainquestion , I also put off all other areas of life. I think later, when I find a job... Only weeks and months pass, and nothing changes.

I don’t agree with the idea that you need to distract yourself, do something else, find a soul mate and switch to romance. As long as there is no job, there is no stability in life and no self-confidence. And there is no quiet life either, everyone is fed up with their questions on the same topic. And my conscience does not allow me to go on dates or do nonsense when I could spend this time on something necessary and useful.

I am writing in desperate hope thathelp , for a hint. How to force yourself to look for a job? How to pull yourself together? I no longer want to communicate with test-antibiotic.com, I don’t want to see anyone. Moreover, I don’t want to get acquainted, I’m exhausted without a new relationship. I simply ignore people - that’s all. I'm ashamed of myself, ashamed to take from my mothermoney , because I have to help her. At the very least, she should provide for herself. And I sit and do nothing. And I don’t know how to move from the dead point.