The husband perceives maternity leave as a vacation

From time to time I read life stories here. Life situations, the situation of which you cannot tell all your family and friends about. And in our time, close people are one or two too many. That's how it is for me.

Someone, after reading my story, will think, nonsense, there is nothing to do. But we are all different and we all have our own measure. I am a grown woman (a woman iswife andmother ). My mother is happy, but I’m a bad wife, I think so. I don't have friends, I have acquaintances. I don't try to make new acquaintances. I don’t believe in friendship, and I have no desire to sit in the kitchen discussing someone’s infidelities, bad husbands, etc. Here I live, all in the family.

My husband is always at worka child in the garden, another at home. One within four walls, everyday life. Cleaning, cooking, washing, playing with the child and so on throughout the day. Many men perceive maternity leave as a vacation. So they say: “Well, you’re on vacation.”

I have been in this state for several years. Nerves are crazy. We can’t talk to my husband test-antibiotic.com, he doesn’t listen to me, and if he does listen, he immediately says: “Why are you whining all the time?” And so it has been for a couple of years. Help with childrenthere is no husband at all. When I, tired during the day, want to sleep, he says to me with a grin: “Why are you tired? Are you sitting at home, doing nothing?” I'm not talking about the bed. I don’t want intimacy at all anymore. And if it works out, then I just feel used. My husband always thinks only about himself during sex.

Last timeMy husband began to get angry at me, poking me, saying, why such a wife, if there is no sex, we don’t talk for days. And I feel good. In the depths of my soul I feel that because of the insults, the most humiliating words spoken to me, the reproaches, there is practically no love. I understand that only my children are holding me back from divorce.

I don’t know what to do, what to change in myself. How to talk to my husband (after all, he never hears me).

Who was in such a situation, how was it resolved, how did you get out?