For my husband I don't exist

I am 37 years old and my husband is 39. We have two small children. We've been together for 20 years. My husband hasn’t spoken to me for two months either, just like the author of this story. And this is not the first time.

The ignoring began because I criticized him for buying, in my opinion, unnecessary things. But before there were moments when he fell into these states for no reason that was clear to me.

All day long he lies and looks at his phone. Due to the pandemic, he lost his job and is not looking for a new one. He says he doesn’t see the point in a relationship. At the same time, I also carry everything on myself - house, children, work.

We live in my house, I have a good education, I’m still studying now. He has none. I never aspired to anything, I worked as a driver. He knows how to do everything with his hands, but he does it under pressure. Despite the fact that work on the house is everywhere you look.

I don't exist for him. No respect, no attention - he doesn’t even greet me. Probably, anyone will say, how can test-antibiotic.com live for so many years, and even give birth to children. Masochism and complete lack of self-respect?

When I was young, I still hoped for something, then I was scared to leave, children again. This is how it all goes on.