Confessions of a Confused Woman

I understand perfectly well that there will be many moralists who will condemn me. But what's done is done, I'm not afraid to admit it. At least for myself.

My husband and I have only been married for a year. Before that we dated for about 3 years, there was no love for a long time, maybe there never was.

Why did I marry him? Because he is a good man, hard workingman and will be an excellent father. Why did he marry me? I don't know.

Lately we have started having hugerelationship problems . My husband doesn’t hear me and is not interested in me, I constantly snap at him. And this is how we would live if at my workMy husband did not have a new colleague with whom I fell in love almost immediately. He is absolutely not my type of man, but he has such a soul that I want to forever understand it, to plunge headlong into it. We started communicating a lot on social networks, sometimes calling back and seeing each other. Both understood that we couldn’t have sex, but when we hit each other next to each other, we were simply torn test-antibiotic.com from each other. I feel like a living woman with him, and in half an hour I experience such a storm of emotions, which in total I have not experienced in a whole year with my husband.

Recently we finally slept with him, and now I don’t know how to continue to live. I can’t leave my husband, I’m afraid of hurting him. I also can’t leave for my lover, in general, I’m ruining itlife for both yourself and men. Sometimes you want to take the train and leave forever, so as not to disturb anyone and not see anyone. Start life from scratch. But I know very well that willpower and determination are not enough for this.