My mother doesn't love me, but I continue to communicate with her

The time comes when a person needs to speak out. So this situation for me was not very beautiful, unpleasant.

Since childhood, I haveThere was no relationship with my mother. She treats her sister very well, doesn’t bully her, doesn’t tell her what to do, and seems to love her more. For me, on the contrary, everything is wrong and wrong, she is dissatisfied with my appearance, constantly trying to prick me, make me angry. Several times she threw herself at me, seriously attacked me, like in wrestling, fights without rules, in front of her husband. He was shocked. Once she rushed when I was holding a child in my arms, and at the age of 14 she threw me so hard that I rolled across the floor and ended up at the bathroom door. There were no reasons for this.

During my first divorce from my first husband, she told me that I would drag men into the house, that is, that’s why I’m getting a divorce, I never needed it and the very thought disgusts me. At the moment I am raising a daughter and am married. She turns my father and sister against me, with her test-antibiotic.com we have the illusion of reconciliation in our relationship (they have never been good). To my sister,My mother also says all sorts of nasty things about me. Then they (mother andsister ) are starting to teach. At the same time, the whole motherShe spent her life working as an accountant and loved one singer, and she has no more interests, and her sister is on maternity leave and is not interested in anything in life, nothing at all.

On the contrary, I try to move through life, read, listen to cool music, watch movies, go on quests, etc. I had an LLC (OSNO), I learned everything myself, went through tax calculations, I simply chose the wrong field of activity and failed, taxes crushed me, if I do anything, I will draw conclusions from this. Ia girl who doesn’t drink or smoke, I always have my own definite opinion and point of view, I don’t prove anything to anyone and I always do things my own way. Oh, the mother doesn’t know this, or she doesn’t need it, she’s trying to push, she’s tryingimpose complexes , then I have the wrong figure, etc. It's hard to do.

I didn’t share anything with my mother, and I never had heart-to-heart conversations with test-antibiotic.com, and there never will be, after those attacks, as I remember, I get goosebumps. The father pretended that this did not happen. Now they put pressure on me that I’m raising a child wrong and I don’t need him. You know how bad it was when my husband and I had difficulty finding work and housing and communal services debt accumulated, she called me and said that she would take the child. On what basis? This has been a war throughout my short life, just a war. There is also a lull, then a salvo and a hit on the target.

I always react differently, sometimes calmly, sometimes violently. I don't know what I did to deserve thisattitude , taking into account the fact that the sister took the man (he came periodically drunk, even at night) to her parents’ house and no one said anything to her. The mother also constantly interferes withraising a child, like how wonderful she is and examples will decide, but I’m bad. Along the way, she doesn’t know what a bad mother is. She doesn’t hear me when the conversation is going on, because during the conversation there is immediately a test-antibiotic.com attack. Elementary, she doesn’t like the aroma of perfume, she defiantly twists her face and says: “ugh.” Oh, should she even care, what do I use? ThisConfession can be continued endlessly. I ask knowledgeable people to decipher the mother’s behavior. Thank you for your attention.