My husband says I don't love my daughter

I am youngmom , yesdaughter , she is one year old. My husband reproached me from the moment we left the hospital. Said I don't love minedaughter , who will take her from me and raise her himself. There were many such requests addressed to me.

There was a reason to say so, little attention was paid to it. I was afraid of my daughter , when she was born, I didn’t know what to do with her. I wanted someone else to deal with her. I was shocked. Then I seemed to get used to it, I was even proud. But when I get really tired, I’m ready to give my daughter to someone else’s aunt. I get so angry at her when she yells. I grab her hands and squeeze her hard, and I get angry again. I can't help it. Then I sober up and realize that she is not to blame for anything. The fact is thatMy husband started drinking a lot, even though he promised me to stop. Which helps me little with the child and at the same time reproaches me for not sacrificing my strength and time to work with the child, but doing test-antibiotic.com things that are not necessary, such as manicures or pedicures. Like, why do I need this, and recently he told me to cut my nails.

Why do men mind their own business? I do this for myself, well, I can’t look untidy. And the child looks good, always combed, washed and well dressed. Or does he have nothing to complain about? Or wants himthe wife neglected herself, and he walked around looking sleek and looking at other well-groomed ladies? I don't understand him. But when I get angry and take it out on a child, it gnaws at me. I want to stop doing this. My husband sees this and addsfuel to the fire, they say, I don’t love my daughter, why did I give birth at all. He sees that I am tired and cannot take the initiative to spend time with my little one so that I can rest.