Tired of being a mistress

I am the same woman who fell in love without memory. Which is still ashamed of what it was and ismistress _ Who gave birth from a madly loved, but strangerhusband .

He did not go to join us with our daughter. Although he promised. But it helps financially. Not a lot of money , but still. I understand what he hasfamily , so I don’t demand anymore. He also doesn’t appear often when I want him to. And after the visit, he disappears as much as he wants. And this has been going on for 16 long years. The daughter is already accustomed to such a father.

And before I met him I wasMarried . My husband and I were bornson . We fought very often. They diverged and converged. They even wanted a second onegive birth , but God took it away. Divorced. I was unhappy in my marriage. And as a mistress she is also unhappy. And where is women's happiness? Living in a marriage with someone you don't love? Or endure and wait for your beloved, but someone else’s husband?

I would really like to meet a third free man and live happily with him. But I no longer believe that I will meet and be able to love someone else.

I know what it's like to be the wife of a cheating husband. But I also know what it is to be the mistress of a married man. In both cases it is very difficult and bad.

Don't judge anyone. Life is multifaceted and not always happy. Everyone is looking for their soul mate, but not everyone is lucky.