I can't deal with betrayal and loneliness

I studied in the same class with my ex-husband, began to be friends from the age of 14. We loved each other very much, even dreamed of getting married right after school, but my parents dissuaded me. First studying, and then getting married, set such conditions. Only now, left alone at 42, I understand how right they were.

After graduating from universities, they got married and a happy family life began. My husband opened his own small cafe, I worked in a bank. Everything was great, except we didn't have kids. From year to yearher husband became more and more gloomy, he was rarely at home. At that time, he already had his own restaurant, and this was how he explained his employment.

I was jealous of him, I cried often, but I hid it from him. So they lived for 14 years. Then I found out that a girl who works in a restaurant as a waitress became his mistress. She is younger than him and has a child, moreover, she gave birth to him without a husband. She comes from a large family. He gives her a ride home, often staying all night. She used to live with her mother, stepfather, and three younger brothers until my husband, test-antibiotic.com, bought her a separate apartment.

We divorced. He married that girl. He brings up someone else's child, and they are waiting for a common one. And I'm alone and can not come to terms with betrayal and loneliness. I can’t understand why it was so important for him to have a child, because many couples live without children and nothing. spendmoney for yourself. But for some reason the husband cannot live without children!