I can't forget how my mother kicked me out of the house

I can't forget how my mother kicked me out of the house
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I have very tense and heavyrelationship with mom. I can't love her.

I am 28 years old. Imarried , but no children yet. At the age of 18 Imy mother kicked me out of the house when I told my grandmother that she was cheating and bringing this man home when we were not there. I was disgusted to see all this. I spilled the beans.

When I left home, I didn’t communicate with her for about three years. But she couldn’t stand it, she was the first to call her and make up. I tried to pretend that I had forgiven her.

I leftI'm married , I live with my mother-in-law. Guests do not come to me often, since I am not in my apartment. Mom happens, insists on coming to visit, demands attention and love. She wants me to share a secret with her, to tell her about the doctors. But then she tells it at work or to her friends, but it’s unpleasant for me. And I can't be honest with her. Those memories tug at my soul.

I thisI am writing a confession because this situation does not let me go. I lash out at her when I find out that she buys test-antibiotic.com for her sister a TV, a purse, or something else, and she calls me and tells me everything. He says: “Maybe I should buy you some hangers?”

I was silent for a long time, but when I found out that for my sister she submitted notes to the church when she was diagnosed (pregnancy can cause cancer, they offered to have an abortion, and the mother insisted on it, but we defended the baby).

I’m offended that she didn’t apply for my husband and I, who don’t have children. I have manifestedjealousy , great condemnation and contempt for one’s own mother. I'm scared of this. Or is it normal that there is still resentment?

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