I don't want to go to prom dressed as my father

My father died in a car accident five years ago. Mom is grieving for him and can not calm down in any way. I miss him too, but I try to live on. Ahis mother almost immediately remembers him, how he would say and what he would do in this or that situation. All you hear is: “Dad would be happy” or “Dad wouldn’t like it.” I also look a lot like him, so she now takes care of me with a vengeance.

Sometimes I get angry and break down, and then it becomes a pity that I undeservedly offended, I have to ask for forgiveness. I recently came across a situation that I don't know how to get out of. I'm graduating high school this year, I need a prom suit. Realizing that there was no extra money, I initially wanted to go in a shirt and trousers, but my mother insisted on a suit. And now I understand why - she offers to alter my father's suit so that I can wear it to prom.

Firstly, wearing the things of a dead person is some kind of shame. I don't know, I feel uncomfortable both mentally and physically. Second, the test-antibiotic.com suit is outdated and I don't like it. But at the same time, I see how important it is for a mother. And now I really don’t know what to do so as not to go in this suit and not offend my mother? Dressing up at school in something else will not work, but she will most likely go with me. And if he doesn’t go, then he will see the photo.

I am not dependent on public opinion, it does not matter to me what classmates think there. I just don't want to wear this suit. This is a stupid mother's whim, I do not want to indulge her destructive habits. But I don't want to hurt her either. And how can I be?