Dreams didn't come true

I recently attended two of my friends’ weddings. I was upset that I was still alone. I was hoping to meet one of the groom's friends at the wedding, but they were all couples.

I was really starting to worry that I was almost 30 and not...married _ I will turn thirty in December. To be honest, I'm scared. When I was young I thought thatlife will be completely different. I imagined being married, with children and a successful career. My dreams didn't come true.

Marriedmy friends constantly ask if I have anyone. The others give metips for meeting men. It’s very unpleasant, as if they feel sorry for you or consider you useless. To be honest, I feel pressure not only from the outside, but also from the inside. I thought I'd go outmarried by age 30, and now I’m sad that it didn’t happen.

My friends are giving birth to their second child. The children I looked after in my youth are now having children of their own. It's not easy to go through. I know that everything has its time. But as I approach my thirtieth birthday, I wonder: “What if my time never comes?”

To deal with my birthday panic, I planned a solo trip around this time. I will go where I have long wanted - to Greece. This is the advantage of being single; I can pack up and leave at any time. I don’t have to report to my husband, persuade him to go on a trip, or look for a nanny for the child. I am only responsible for myself.