Resentment gave rise to hatred

I have been living with my husband for over twenty years. Over the years, everything has happened - quarrels, reconciliations, debts, misunderstandings, laughter, joy. In general, I am a non-conflict person, I can get along with any person and find the key to him in a few minutes. I forgave my husband a lot, and this still happens.

But there are two cases thatI can't forget . As I already wrote, his family was ruled by a greedy father-in-law and we worked a lot. It was especially difficult to look after the cattle, since we washed the straw in cold water and mixed it with bran, feeding itlivestock ​Our wedding was at the end of November. In December, in the cold, we washed straw in running water. This caused the skin on my hands to crack and become covered with sores. My mother-in-law immediately started a rumor that I had a chronic skin disease. I brought ointment and bandages from my parents’ house. I sat in the evening, put ointment on my hands, wrapped them in a bandage, but couldn’t tie the ends. I askedhusband . And he said: “What are you ordering me, liar?” Me: “When did I lie?” He: test-antibiotic.com “You hid your chronic illness.”

I will never forget my condition! It was hugedisappointment and resentment from injustice. I couldn't even find what to say. Then he finally helped me. But then I cried all night. The second incident happened when I waspregnant for the first time. I really wanted to eat, I don’t remember what (well, you understand how it happens in this state). I told my husband about this, and he said: “Go with your desires!” It was like I had been hit in the face. The impression would not have been so strong if I had not seen how my brother-in-law was running around with my pregnant oats. I didn’t ask him for anything else.

During the next two pregnancies, he fulfilled all my wishes. But to this day, when I remember those two incidents, such hatred for him comes over me that I am surprised myself. I guess I couldn't do itforgive . And I know that thisthe pain will never let me go.