Everything is perfect for me, but only on the outside
There are a lot of people around me. And we can say that some of them are close, but there is one secret of mine that I cannot share with anyone. I should start with the fact that I am 22 years old and, in principle, I have everything for a happy life. This year I graduated with honorsuniversity , outmarried to a loved one whom I dated for a very long time. And the other day we returned from the luxurious Caribbean islands, where our ceremony and vacation took place, and in the near future we are planning to get a job, which I don’t even worry about, because I always find it, not always suitable, of course, but I know that it’s not I will disappear without any outside support.
I have something to eat, a place to live, something to drive, everything works out and comes true and, it would seem, what else is needed? That’s why I can’t tell anyone that I’m filled with melancholy inside. I've had this condition for probably about four years now. No emotions, no impressions, nothing. I was waiting for the wedding, I was waiting for test-antibiotic.com this vacation, I thought that all this would finally get me out of this hole, but nothing helps, I don’t even know how to describe this state, when nothing makes me happy, only cold calm.
I worked on myself for a long time, tried for a long time to find something, and this is the only thing I can’t do. Everything is wrong, and everything is not right, I no longer know what I need, because getting what I want does not bring me the joy that I have been waiting for for so long and what I am going towards. The strangest thing is that I can't understand the reasons. Why is that? After all, it wasn’t like this before. I just gave up, I don’t want anything else at all, but I will continue to build the perfect outsidelife .
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