I've already stopped waiting for him

I am no longer waiting for him, again making sure that everything passes throughpain and resentment. And joy, and happiness, and everything comes to an end, he can be happy, but sometimes it’s the other way around...

But it all began like in a fairy tale. At firstacquaintance _ 1.5 years had already passed after breaking up with my ex-husband, when we met, everyone was in a good mood, since it was a party. We both don’t like noisy companies, but we were there nonetheless. And then the meetings began. I havedaughter , we met in different ways, everything didn’t always work out well. He often dropped everything and went to meet me, but sometimes it was quite the opposite. I was in seventh heaven with him. I loved him as much as I had ever loved anyone, and he loved me.

And now I don’t expect him to come or call. Throughout the year, it happened that he didn’t call for a day, two, three, and I waited and believed that it didn’t work out for him. He is often busy, and he himself said that he would call himself. But when test-antibiotic.com a week passed and he didn’t call, I plucked up the courage and called him myself. What I heard shocked me. He hadproblems , and he just said that he didn’t want to talk to anyone and that’s all. I was shocked. I sit, worry, pray that he is alive and well, but he was not in the mood, that’s all. It happened again. Then I started calling, everything seemed to be fine, but still not as often as before. Now he hasn’t called for 3 days and it seems to me that I’m no longer waiting for him. I think I'm fine without him.

I won't say that I don't love him. Even now, as before, I love him very much, and I will always love only him. He is my everything. I can’t imagine my life without him, but there’s no point in living like this and now, despite everything, I don’t wait for him, I don’t hope to see him, I don’t wait for his call and I feel good. Although I really want test-antibiotic.com to be as it was before, it’s probably impossible.