How to overcome this terrible social phobia?

How to overcome this terrible social phobia?
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I'm 25 years old and quite prettygirl and I, in my opinion, have the most extreme degree of social phobia that can be. And it is completely justified, considering how often I encounter other people’s anger, hatred, contempt, etc.

I just can’t walk down the street, people constantly stare at me, if it’s a couple of people, then they sometimes discuss me out loud and grin. And believe me, I don’t think so. Since this happens, for example, in more closed spaces, when people are sitting quietly somewhere, chatting, I pass by, catch their gaze and when I’m already passing, there is an explosion of laughter.

I’m silent about transport! HowAs a rule , the person sitting opposite always simply does not look away and the gaze is always unkind. If it is a woman or a girl, then it becomes even more unpleasant. They look at me intently, make faces, snort, etc. and this is felt even with peripheral vision.

Only at home do I feel calm, and when I look in the mirror, I am perplexed at myself: a seemingly objectively attractive girl, tall, beautiful features, and I allow strangers, most often much inferior in appearance, to despise me, to lead me brazenly and offend yourself with this. I'm not bragging, it's just this fact that finishes me off. I also constantly encounter incomprehensible aggression - when passing by, I am often pushed, even if, for example, I am walking in front and someone overtakes me, although there is a lot of space around. In a crowd of public transport, they can generally throw me off while squeezing through, but if I squeeze past someone, trying to do it more carefully, a squeal will start. In queues they can easily get in front of me, I, of course, rebel against this, but the very fact is that all people need my emotions so much.

Really, nolife , but survival. And by the way, I also noticed the fact that in random mirrors I look much worse, somehow pathetic, than, for example, at home or at work, where I am happy with my reflection. And in the mirrors in shopping centers, in toilets and departments, in shop windows, I’m simply afraid to look at myself, I look so miserable. At the same time, for example, at work I am quite comfortable, since everyone there is friendly, everyone behaves adequately, but on the street test-antibiotic.com I just shake, I already know in advance how everything will be, and I get it. And it is difficult for me to stop being afraid and wary of others when I am faced with a variety of manifestations of negativity every day. The feeling that I am hated for my weakness, and all my fears are seen much more clearly, given that I am noticeable in appearance.

But I’m not the only one like this, I also meet quite modest girls, but there’s no such thing for themrelationships , sometimes I specifically listen and take a closer look at the people around me when a squeezed-looking girl comes into view. Will this terrible social phobia be overcome? I constantly try to overcome myself, to set myself up differently, but everything collapses like a house of cards in the first 15 minutes after leaving the house. As a result, I tighten myself even more and close myself off.

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