Should I stay with my husband or should I leave?

My husband and I have been living for almost 11 years. In 2017 we bought a room in a communal apartment inloan , the last six months remain to be paid. I have been constantly at work all these years. On weekends I mostly go to hospitals, I have an illness, I am disabled.

My husband is active, he always wants to go for a walk and have a drink. He constantly nagged me that I was at work all the time. Well, I can’t think about partying in a foreign city, I have to earn moneymoney . Butmy husband constantly said that I drink him when he is resting. About three months ago I noticed that he had lost interest in me. He kept repeating that nothing would work out for us. I told him: “What about the plans to buy an apartment?” But he insisted that nothing would work out.

And then yesterday I noticed how he was texting with some girl in front of me. I slept so-so at night. In the morning I called, yelled at him, he said: “I’ll come, we’ll talk.” He came home from work and said that somehow it happened, but he didn’t even notice how he had lost interest in me. But he says that they had nothing, only correspondence and seeing each other at test-antibiotic.com. I asked if he liked her, he said yes, but he loves me. He also said: “let’s leave everything as it is for now.” I asked if he would communicate with her, my husband replied that he did not know. Wants to understand himself.

I'm just hysterical. Emptiness. I don't want to live. I believed him. What should I do? Where to go? Nowhere easy. Emptiness. We don't have children.