My daughter hates and despises me

It’s scary to write about hating your daughter, but that’s exactly how it is for me. The child was desired and was born in marriage. In two yearshusband left for his mistress because she was alreadypregnant _ He admitted that if not for this, he would not have left his family. What about our daughter? Isn't he yet born?Is the child of a mistress more important than his own daughter?

So I was left alone with a small child and meager child support. No help from exthere was no husband . My parents are far away and lived on the brink of poverty themselves, although they both work.

I immediately found a job and tried to provide for my daughter. I spent almost all of my earnings on food, toys and clothes for my daughter. She was content with little. Maybe that's whynever remarried . Who needs an unkempt woman with a child? Not only was there no money for decent clothes and cosmetics, but part-time jobs consumed all my free time.

We lived with her in a rented apartment. It was only when my daughter turned 12 that I was given a room in a dorm. By this time, she test-antibiotic.com had already become more demanding. And then I noticed thatmy daughter is embarrassed and even hates me. She never invites her friends over. And when we met by chance on the street, she pretended not to notice me. I, not understanding anything, called out to my daughter. She waved her hand in greeting from a distance, and I heard her say to her friends: “this is our neighbor.”

I cried all day. I can understand her, but I was expecting at least an apology. The daughter , without a shadow of embarrassment or remorse, said: “I was ashamed to admit that you are my mother.” My friend tells me that it’s all my fault. I raised a selfish girl. It was necessary to take care of yourself, then it would be more comfortable for the child to live with a beautiful and calm mother. She said that my gloomy appearance would repel anyone.

I hoped that my daughter would understand the sacrifices I made for her. But I encountered contempt and hatred. I find myself thinking more and more that I hate my own child. Especially when she said that now she understands why she left mefather .