My isolation due to the ridicule of classmates

I am 23 years old. Unfortunately, in life I am not a happy person, I think it’s all connected with school, or rather with my shame, which, apparently, I will never forget. In the 1st grade during class, I really wanted to go to the toilet because of my indecision, I didn’t tell the teacher that I needed to go out and something bad happened to me. The next day, all my classmates knew about this and reproached me for this for 9 years. Then they started making fun of me, and my classmate Vanya, sitting behind me, apparently deciding to “make a joke,” dumped a trash can on my head and the whole class laughed at me. But my suffering did not end there.

Once in the 7th grade, during a physics lesson, when the teacher was not yet in the office, I was sitting on the penultimate desk, not noticing that my jeans had dropped slightly and my leopard-print panties became visible. Those who were sitting behind giggled and without thinking twice took a photo of them, this photo flashed throughout the class. How many times test-antibiotic.com did I try to persuade my parents to transfer me to another school, but it was useless. When I graduated from school, I thanked all the gods, butI still can’t forget all this horror. Because of these humiliations and bullying of me, I lost my self-esteem, self-confidence, I can’t hold down a job, for a maximum of six months and that’s it. I don't have anyhusband , no children, I consider myself a failure, looking at many people who already have families and work in one place for a long time. I don’t know what to do next.