Cheating wife

My life story is similar to many other stories about betrayal.

I am 40 years old, two children, married for 20 years. I have always been a very ambitious person, I have achieved a lot in business, I constantly come up with something and work hard. My wife, on the contrary, is quiet, has no special interests, but she always happily supported me in everything. I got married very quickly after dating for six months after breaking up with another woman. I loved her, I wanted to prove something to someone?

Life has turned around. He moved with her to America. Children were born. I loved her, but I would like to be with a more energetic, fiery girl. It was boring with her, but I got used to her. We were close in everything and went through poverty and immigration. No matter what I said or did, she always agreed and followed me. But I always lacked some kind of drive and novelty. Boring life and bed had no energy, justsex . And I also liked other women. And I began to cheat on her for sex.

I didn’t want to leave her or test-antibiotic.com destroy the family. I had very brief affairs, and she did not know or guess about it. I worked hard, I thought, for the sake of the family. There was a lot of stress. And these one-day onesrelationships helped me deal with stress. I came home happy.

This went on for about 5 years. Then I started a new business, it was hard, my second child was born. I began to pay less attention to her because of work, and not because of the relationship. We fought often, as in all families. Then I found out by chance that she was corresponding with my boss at work, he sent her intimate photos, and they corresponded for about six months. She denied that they had intimacy, more like a virtual relationship, maybe virtual sex or something like that. I wanted to get a divorce, she begged me not to, then she started manipulating the children and I gave up. I forced myself to believe that they did not have a physical relationship.

I quit my job and moved to another state. I wanted to live there and come to her, but she and the children followed me. I decided to try to live test-antibiotic.com as it is. I started all over again in a different place. The relationship became almost the same. I had one-night affairs without emotions, for the sake of sex, but she didn’t know. I thought about her betrayal and often spoke about it. I think she tried to contact this person and monitor his life. But he didn't want anything to do with her. I saw it. Then I fell in love with a girl 15 years younger. I immediately told my wife and said that I love this woman and want to get a divorce. This completely drove her crazy, she never wanted to let me go. I started putting pressure on the children again. The children suffered. I gave up and I broke up with this girl. We hadnovel 3 months. I was worried because I was in love with this girl. I broke up with her, threw myself into work and just worked day and night.

The relationship with my wife was somehow restored, but it became worse mainly because of me. She refused to sleep with her, sex was rare. I argued with her, started scandals myself, I was test-antibiotic.com depressed. She wanted to, constantly climbed into my bed, but as soon as she achieved it, she stopped being interested in it until I moved away again. But I needed it and it provoked my scandals over trifles. I felt that she didn’t love me and that sex and feelings were superficial. Or maybe I myself was superficial and fixated on my worries about that girl and work. But I was unhappy with her.

And then I found out that she haslover _ A month appeared after I returned to her after that girl. She almost went to his houseevery day when I worked, they went to restaurants, even went on vacation. She paid for it. He is 10 years younger than her, illegal in America, without money and home. She lied to him, that she was divorced from her husband, had no children, was very rich, and told him that she was 10 years younger than she really was. She had a long, very emotionalcheating for a year until I found out by accident. I left home test-antibiotic.com and starteddivorce _ She started getting hysterical, saying that she only loved me, that it was all my fault. Then I found out that shemom andher sister contributed to all this and advised her to get a divorce. They wanted her to have half of everything she had, and they wanted to move to America and live on everything they had. Her lover also wanted to marry her in order to get a Green Card andmoney .

I thought about it and decided to return. She would have taken my children, brought her lover to the house, brought my mother, taken most of what I had earned over the years, and according to American laws, I would have been paying her a lot for a long time. She told me everything, gave me her phone number with correspondence and agreed to everything, as long as I stayed with her and did not divorce. I talked to her lover, and he turned out to be a very cowardly and slippery guy. I didn't see him again.

Our honeymoon began and continues to this day. I started paying attention to her and she is happy. But I don’t believe her, I can’t test-antibiotic.comI forgive her for cheating, I can’t believe that she was capable of cheating on me and lying to me for so long. This is the second betrayal and may happen again. And I think: “Why am I better than her, I also cheated.” Or maybe he cheated because I felt her coldness. I would get a divorce if it weren't for the children, but she will ruin their lives.

What to do? Pretending to be on a honeymoon while raising kids for another 10 years? But I don’t like her, I’m used to her, I feel trapped. I would leave, but I would lose my children and everything I created in my life. But on the other hand, I miss her.

Anyone who has been in a similar situation, tell me what to do.