How I lost my head from love

I have been married for 18 years, we havedaughter (10 years old). Came outmarried not for love, but simply because of the betrayal of her boyfriend. He married someone else, and in revenge, I also took advantage of the opportunity.

I met a man and got married. We have been living here for 18 years. A daughter was born. For the last two years we have begun to live like a cat and a dog. From the very beginning until now, we each have our own separate budget. The child went to school, and there was a shortage of money. We constantly have scandals on this basis. My budget was not enough. My husband only gave me 3 thousand rubles. Accordingly, my 18 thousand + 3 thousand is not enough for housing. And the quarrels began. Accordingly, I decided to get a divorce and started looking for a replacement for him.

In August 2016, I went to visit my sister and met a man who lived with her. He fraudulently gained my trust that he loves me, that he wants to leave her and be with me. We exchanged phone numbers and after leaving we had a great test-antibiotic.com night of madness. I cheated on my husband and fell in love with this man.

It turned out that thisa man , as they saygigolo , lives off women. After I left home, I constantly thought about this man. All thoughts are only about him. Living in dreams. There were constant correspondence and telephone conversations between us. It's all about love, that we will be together.

After two months of such negotiations, he makes an appointment, says that he is coming to see me and asks me to send money to the card. I send him some money and wait for his arrival. As a result, the next day he does not get in touch, the phone is turned off, and the date did not take place. Then, after a while, he got in touch and apologized profusely, saying that he had important things to do, and the circumstances turned out to be such that it was not possible to meet. I believed everything. But the borrowing of money did not end there.

The next time he calls me at 2:00 am and says that he wanted to surprise me and came to me drunk. Accordingly, he was stopped at the checkpoint and asked for 30,000 test-antibiotic.com rubles for a fine and he will be free, and the car will be taken to the impound lot. Accordingly, this time I go to him againhelp and send this amount to his card.

It turned out that this was another attempt to get from memoney . And there were very, very many such loans. But this money was not returned to me. I started calling constantly to ask him to return my money. But he constantly had excuses that he couldn'treturn this money, because he is having trouble with his job, that he is not paid at work, that he needs this money for treatment and examination.

I haven't been able to get this money back for 8 months now. That's what it doesthe love of a mad woman. I have already accepted that he will never return them. I am very remorseful for my actions. I don't know what to do.