My husband and mother-in-law devastated me mentally.

I want to write my story, but it is more of a psychological nature. I want you to listen to me and give me advice.

I already wrote here once about my feelings about the unfair actions of my mother-in-law. Frequent scandals, worrieshusband . But the grievances seemed to have gone away, I communicated with her again and again. It burned again, and again it hurt.

After one scandal, I realized that there was no turning back. She sucked out all the positive emotions, faith, respect for her. We began to communicate less. For some time I was glad that no one was controlling us, I didn’t have to report to anyone and endure half-hour monologues. Everything seemed fine. But that was just the starting point.

The husband , who was very tired of the showdown, quarreled with his mother to smithereens. There was a very strong scandal. And I got it. It was as if a demon had possessed him. He wanted to kick me out of the house. Made me tell my mother that I was to blame for their quarrels.

Then, after a quarrel, he began to drink sometimes. Thatbeer , then vodka, right in front of the children during dinner. Either test-antibiotic.com with “friends” to the bathhouse, or to the garage. I call, call home, he shouts: “What do you want from me?” Then the drunk man will come.

He was so worried about what he and his mother hadrelationships are destroyed. I tried to talk to him, advised him that there was no need to be offended, but that he needed to talk. Also stop drinking. He could go out with friends to drink beer 2-3 times a week.

I was running out of patience. One time he left like that, I called, and he said that he would come in an hour. And then it hit me. I sobbed into the phone, saying that I was in pain and didn’t remember anything else. He arrived in half an hour. Then, over the course of a year, I remembered all this. He could even start drinking beer on the street with the children, and then sit down with some company. And the children don’t understand where they are at this time.

That's not so bad. Everything affected my character. I went back to work after maternity leave and was so happy. But I noticed such a trait in myself that I began to stand for the truth, express my opinion where it would be better to remain silent.

By the way, test-antibiotic.com was not like this before marriage. She was modest and calm. And then I really “opened up” after maternity leave. I argued with women older than me if I suddenly felt “unfair”attitude towards me. She was proving something. The scale was such that they discussed me in front of me in an official vehicle in the presence of 15 people.

I think this was due to the fact that throughout the 8 years of maternity leave I lived in a tense rhythm, in constant stress. At first she was silent, but closer to the eighth year of her life she began to answer her mother-in-law and was nervous.

I always had an answer ready, as if on impulse. When she screamed, and I, out of resentment, feeling injustice, answered her in a raised tone. I was always shaking.

In general, I should be enjoying family life with my beloved husband and two children, but I am wasting my energy on an angry, embittered woman. Now I have turned into the same one.

And now I work in my dream company. I had a desire to transfer to another department, due to my second education. I have been working in a position that is very boring for almost two years. There is no development.

Shared test-antibiotic.com with my boss. He went to the deputy. director, ask to transfer me. She immediately tells him: “Oh, is this the one who quarrels with everyone? I don’t need one like that.”

You don't even know how I felt. I was crushed. By the way, I do the work very quickly and efficiently. The current boss knows and sees this. I cried for 3 days at home, or on the way home. And I saw the boomerang in its real form. Get what you wanted, and do it yourself.

And I felt disgusted with myself. That over the years of my life I have not become wiser, but on the contrary, I have become callous and embittered. What will I give to my children? I really felt disgusted with myself. Recentlythe husband went and made peace with his mother, he was all glowing. They let off some steam and everything is fine with them.

And I’ve been feeling bad for two months now. Not because they made up. This happened much later. I can't even smile. Some kind of emotional stupidity. Previously, my husband and I dreamed about something, we were something for each other, but now I feel that I have lost the only person with whom I was spiritually close.

I was killed mentally. There is no joy or purpose in life. Especially after I was denied a job. Now my husband is glowing, but I feel bad, realizing that I took the whole blow on myself, trying to seem soft. I'm running out of resources.

I haven't laughed sincerely for a long time. Became fixated. I automatically come home to feed the children. I’ll hug them, caress them and that’s it, I can’t enjoy anything else in life.

I recently told my husband that I am unhappy. That they devastated me mentally. But we must move on with our lives. Raise children to be good people, be an example for them, so that they are proud of me.

Her feelings for her husband, whom she loved more than anyone else in the world, have cooled. I feel bad when he hugs me. There is no resentment as such, but they are frozen into a ball.

It’s disgusting that he lied to me, that he preferred to sit with friends and drink beer 2-3 times a week when we were waiting for him. He also got into trouble later. There were major scandals twice, he insulted me.

You know, like a patient. I didn’t do anything to him, I just answered in the wrong tone, and test-antibiotic.com he was just waiting for a clue. It got to the point that he went on a business trip, leaving us with a broken bathroom. I then called a plumber. When he left, I felt happier and began to give more love to my children.

But now I think the family needs to be saved. He is now courting me, he understands his mistake. I don't care. There is no tenderness for him. It's just like they were roommates. But before we were inseparable. True halves of each other.

How to revive your feelings? The children love him, and he is also ready to do anything for them. How to revive yourlove of life?

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