My husband and I’s life has lost its bright colors

My husband and I’s life has lost its bright colors
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My husband and I have been together for 7.5 years, of which 2.5 years have been married.The relationship started back in school. In my youth I had all sorts of things: passionate relationships, quarrels, screaming, hysterics, fights, scandals, wildsex , flowers, gifts. Then all this began to fade away...

I still don’t understand how we got married. Everything happened spontaneously, in fact, my parents overwhelmed me with constant nagging, I wanted to escape from them,my husband offered to live with him. I'm decentthe girl said that I wouldn’t live without painting, but he didn’t refuse - so they got married.

After the wedding they lived with his parents. At first I behaved exemplarily and quietly, worked, ran the household, then I slowly began to get my license, since I myself was from a fairly wealthy family and my parents spoiled me. As a result, we moved to Moscow, rented a luxury apartment, both changed jobs, and bought a car. In fact, in order to provide all my “wants”, we do not get out of any loans, for the most part he pays for them, since I spend my salary on myself. My husband tolerates it all unquestioningly, test-antibiotic.com even says that he is satisfied with everything.

Now time has passed, I look at all ourlife , relationships and I understand that no matter how you look at it, we are different, we have different views, we live for the most part as friends, sex is out of habit. We see each other exclusively late in the evening, on the couch in front of the TV, food to order or fast food.

We both made pathetic attempts to save the relationship, tried to make surprises, add romance, but nothing came of it. Now we’ve left everything as it is and go with the flow.

I want new acquaintances, flirting, vibrant relationships, wild sex and fresh impressions from life. I understand that if someone wants to get to know me, I won’t mind. I understand in my head that I need to get a divorce, but it’s somehow scary. Do I live out of habit or do I just keep it for selfish purposes?husband next to you.

My husband says that he loves me and wants to be only with me, but I don’t know what to do, I can’t decide on anything and I don’t want to calm down either.

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