I don’t know what to do right, and there’s no one to ask

I'm in my third year at university and for the last couple of years I haven't been able to decide what to do next and how to behave. I lostmother while studying in high school.

She was my closest person, she always listened to me and helped. After my mother passed away, I live with my older sister. There is alsoa father who tries to take part in our lives, but he simply cannot, since he has already become quite distant from us.

I used to have my three closest ones aroundgirlfriends , but now that it starteduniversity , each of them had something to do, a job, someone went to study in another city and I have absolutely no one to talk to so that I know for sure that they will understand me. This won’t work with my family, as they are too conservative on the issues that are most important to me now. So, my first oneThe question is how can one perceive normallyloneliness and inability to reveal your experiences to others?

Besides, I have a lot of test-antibiotic.com studying right now, but I just can’t bring myself to do what’s required. Instead, I read and watch something off topic. Everything is moving very slowly. I would like to learn how to manage my time more effectively. But for this you need to develop willpower, and I have no idea what to do with it. There is also a young man who is three years older than me, and he is something like my first unsuccessful sexual partner. I can't get him out of my head, so I'm trying to get along with him.communication . But he is ready to talk only throughInternet and ashamed to look me in the eye. Logic dictates that it is necessary about himforget and mind your own business, but he doesn’t give me peace. I don't know what to do with this.