The guy cheated and then proposed

A typical life story, but I don’t know how to talk it out, that’s why I’m writing here. I met a guy on the Internet, we live in different cities (his parents live in my city). I visited my city twice, respectively, we lived together (in the end, 1.5 months). Fell in love immediately. We agreed that in 3 months I would come to him in another city, since I couldn’t do it for work before. We called each otherevery day , after 2 months, I understand thatHis attitude towards me is cooling. If I don’t call myself, then he may not call for several days. And that’s just what I wrote.

Then came the November weekend. He wrote to me in the morning, then disappeared for 3 days and didn’t pick up the phone. He ended up cheating on me. During the entire 2.5 months that we called each other, he met with other girls, went to the cinema or to restaurants with them. And these three days he was with a girl, he says, he met on the Internet, invited her to the cinema, then she called him to her place and everything happened there. He says that he went without sex for a long time, but test-antibiotic.com couldn’t refuse.

While I was crying and cursing him, he proposed to me. Only now I realized what I had done, I didn’t understand what I was doing, and that only he needed me. I talked to him for several days, about the fact that I needed to break up, that I would not come to him. And he tried to dissuade me. As a result, I went to a dating site and saw that it was online. I told him everything and didn’t pick up the phone all day. Closer to the night, I finally called him, and now he offered to break up, because he didn’t want to torment me and himself, too, that I wouldn’t believe him anymore. In the end, I suggested starting all over again.

I never brought up the conversation about his betrayal. Still, I came to see him and the two weeks were the most wonderful. Then he came to me, introduced him to his parents, and I introduced him to mine. I was matched. We have discussed the wedding date and are preparing for it. Coming soon. Then I couldn’t stand it and told me my doubts that I didn’t know what would happen next, whether he would cheat on me test-antibiotic.com again or not. What's the point of getting married if we get divorced? He says that he does not want to separate, that he sees only me as his wife, that he loves me and does not know how to live further. What will never change, will be proven. And I don’t know what to do. I automatically prepare for the wedding, try to do the best I can, find fault with little things, and worry about how the organization will go. And the feelings of happiness, correctness, and fullness are absent.

I love him, but there are such doubts in my soul, and closer to the wedding date I am becoming more and more scared. I still think about his betrayal, even when he’s around. It happened that I reprimanded a couple of times that I was thinking about everything, that I didn’t want a wedding, that I didn’t know what would happen next. There's no point in being together if we end up breaking up. Still, the groom stands his ground and doesn’t want to give up.

This is how we prepare for life together, we breathe with each other. And then I start reprimanding him. It's good that I'm not hysterical. I try to speak in a calm tone, but sometimes I really want to.