The guy is tired of me

Now I’m in a desperate situation, I feel incredibly bad mentally, I’m constantly crying, I’m afraid of loneliness. I can't talk to anyone about this because it seems to me that everyone is already tired of my whining.

I have a young man, alonegirlfriend andfamily with whom I have not the bestrelationship . I suffer very much from feelings of loneliness. My friend always treated my problems superficially, even the most insignificant ones. My mother and I are practically on first-name terms; we don’t communicate outside the home, at home only about everyday topics. I don't have a father. The only person who understood and supported me was my boyfriend. But apparently he was also tired of me.

There was recently one situation that finally strengthened my confidence in this. That day I came to visit him. He was talking to a friend, and this made me sad, and then a lump of bad thoughts about feeling lonely began to grow and I burst into tears. He did not console me, but said that he did not want to see me if I continued to test-antibiotic.com behave the same way. He was my closest person, and now it seems to me that I can’t tell him anything anymore. If I write to him that I feel bad, he simply ignores these messages.

At the same time, everyone forbids me to go to a psychiatrist, they say, everyoneproblems in winter, lack of sun, vitamins and other similar things. But my despair is growing, if I am outside of society, then I just cry non-stop. And now I am left more and more without support, and I am afraid that one day I simply will not be able to stand it. I love my boyfriend very much, and my already depressed state is making it worse and worseindifference and irritation towards me. How can I get out of all this?