Constant depression due to lack of money
I don’t even know how best to describe the problem and where to start.
I am 31 years old. I live in the province. About 4 years ago I was an active, sociable, radiant, strong, creative person. I always wanted everything, I learned new and unknown, it was interesting for me to live, I was probably the calmest person.
But for the past 1.5 years I have become a completely opposite passive person. I’m not interested in anything, I’ve abandoned creativity, I don’t want to learn something and explore new things. I stopped reading completely. Depression appeared, lack of desire to achieve anything, she began to whine, she didn’t want to communicate with anyone (I just want to come home, lie on the sofa and not think about anything). I take every single word with hostility. I scream for anything. Constant headache. She became nervous and irritable.
It feels like I've reached my ceiling, but it's pushing me down. I'm lashing out at my husband, I don't know why. Maybe it's because he can't help me, or because he can't properly provide for his family and end all of test-antibiotic.com's financial problems (there are many). Or because he can't help himself. Or the fact that I had hopes for him, but he did not justify them, and thus prevents me from somehow taking everything into my own hands. I've already thought about it, to take matters into my own hands. Why then should Ihusband if allCan I solve problems myself?
I would be glad to do creative work again, but this requires funds, and they are not even available for bread. You get a salary, and everything goes to loans. I really want to find the strength in myself and become a “human” again. Cope with everything easily without depression.
Has anyone been in a similar situation and how did you get out of it?
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