During a quarrel, the husband took the side of his mistress

I completely lost myself and the meaning of life. I'll tell you in more detail. Left earlygot married , had a baby, but nothing worked out with my husband and he was imprisoned.

While he was in places not so remote, I applied fordivorce and met my second civil partnerhusband . He loves freedom, hanging out with friends, drinking. Against this backdrop, we argue a lot. We already have a child together.

Just recently he drank heavily and walked in our yard. I saw him purely by chance with another girl (she is his ex and also the godmother of my niece, she often visits us). By the way, my husband and I live with my two sisters. At that moment, I quickly got dressed and found them in the bushes, of course, they didn’t have time to do anything. But the worst thing happened later! She came to fight me! Kindergarten of course. And he stood there feeling sorry for her. I threw out all his things, he lives in another city.

After all thisa girl all over the area where I live told test-antibiotic.com how terrible I am, which is what I said to her. And the worst thing was that everyone believed it, since all my friends like to drink in the yard, I don’t drink and, accordingly, I don’t sit with them. I'm going crazy because I think the whole world is against me. I wake up with anxiety, I fall asleep with anxiety. It feels like I'm eating myself. I don't know how to bring myself into balance.

So is minemy family doesn't believe me. My husband wants to return. I think I'm readyI’m sorry , but I’m starting to panic that I’ll have to feel all this again. I can’t meet new men, I’m constantly looking for a trick. Self-esteem is zero. I have no desire to communicate with anyone. 1.5 months of hysteria, I can’t calm down. I'm afraid of going crazy. Although I understand that this is a normal life situation. By the way, I take everything very seriously and have been tormenting myself for two months. I don’t know how to put my thoughts in order and move on with my life.