My worst fears came true

This is a continuation of my confession about going to college and being lonely.

I’m new to the group and absolutely no one has met me, no one communicates with me and no one wants to do so. I don’t want to impose myself either, you won’t be nice by force. They don't accept me, I'm a black sheep with no friends. They divided into pairs/threes/groups of friends, where I have no place. Nobody pays attention to me, except that my classmate makes fun of me, his words: “I wanted someone else,” “she’ll go (to the toilet) now and hide there,” “she lowered her eyes, she’s hiding.”

No one is interested in me, I feel so hurt and hurt, because being alone is very difficult and difficult. When my classmates were asked what they expected, they said: “they thought there would be a lot of girls.” I sit alone, no one sits next to me. To come up first and introduce yourself means to impose, and I don’t want that. They play games together, communicate, sit together and walk around, discussing something. They make nasty jokes, insult mothers and laugh about it. They are already friends, but I feel like a ghost.

Nobody needs me. Today one boy from the group said: “Hi, my name is Danila. Why are you so quiet? I really am a gray mouse, although I really want to have friends. It’s very hard and difficult for me to be alone, being in college without friends is not living, but surviving, no one will let you copy your homework/test, won’t talk to you, won’t be close. I wear old, worn-out clothes, and the boys wear decent expensive clothes, some kind of tracksuits. I feel like a homeless person among them.

When I was in the corridors and stairs, I saw how beautiful the girls were there, beautiful faces, expensive stylish clothes. I'm afraid that I will forever remain a loner. I was a loner when I moved to a new class (5), and no one met me, or rather, we talked with one girl, then she went to another. Another girl used me so that I could write her off and that’s it, I was completely alone. I remember how I cried that no one would communicate with me, I’m afraid that the same situation will happen now.

I need friends, not test-antibiotic.com just study, but there are none. I remember when my classmate wanted to sit at my desk, and when he saw me, he immediately moved away, very quickly. The leader of our group answers me rudely when I ask him something, that is, he quickly answers and leaves, although I usually feel embarrassed even to even approach, so I asked the teachers or security.

I'm desperate. Will I really have no friends? I'm so confused. I don't know what to do. I want to go underground, I hate college.