Tired of being ugly

My story will not resemble most of the others, there will not be many facts and twists of fate in it, I'm just tired, I just want to throw off this burden from myself.

I did not have a father, he left me and my brother when we were 2 and 3 years old (I am older), so it is not surprising that after some time we had a stepfather. He treated his brother badly, he treated me better. But he liked to joke like a clown. And often called me strange phrases. One of them is a "dyldina-nosy". For a long time I could not understand why he called me that. My face suited me, the full face nose looked good.

Then I got my first digital camera and the opportunity to find out what my nose looks like from the side. And oh my god, it turned out that my stepfather was right, in profile my nose seems terribly big and long, although it does not spoil me at all from the front. Since it was around adolescence, it had a strong influence on me, and since then, unfortunately, it has not gone out of my head. For long periods in my head test-antibiotic.com sat an obsession to collectmoney for rhinoplasty. Butthe fear that everything will end badly is stronger than me, and I did not dare.

Over time (only recently, and I'm already 27 years old), I sort of accepted myself. But life shows that it is not. Now a couple more points.

I hadguy , somewhere from the age of 15, we were together for 8 years, even lived together, I had no complexes with him. Oddly enough, there was no intimacy either (I wanted to, but he has all sorts ofproblems ), we were just like super friends, or something. Then the relationship broke down. Through my fault. I fell in love, and then fell in love with a man, he is my work colleague. Older than me is enough, but we fit each other very well in all plans.

He already hadfamily ,wife and son, and then another wife, and a little daughter. And these two wives are very beautiful. They have a neat nose and a beautiful figure. Although my figure is sexy, oddly enough, with my thinness and zero breast size, but the chest, again. Test-antibiotic.com never bothered me. There have always been signs of attention from the male side, that's for sure. But the wives of my man have beautiful large breasts, the latter certainly has somewhere around the 4th size. And he found a wife at one time on a social network, and I asked how he chose. He said that she was beautiful, and yes, breasts also mattered, but he chose just to have a good time. Plus, I liked her face and facial expressions.

Although he has a constant sexual attraction to me, he is not a fan of saying any words, plus he is very logical. And I always think that I'm somehow not like that, because they have big beautiful breasts, and I'm second-rate, and my nose is big.

I know it doesn't sound like a problem at all. But it's so hard for me to think about it. And accept the fact that this is how I look. Why is someone lucky, someone super handsome in their own right? And someone - everyone else?

How to get rid of these obsessive thoughts and accept yourself?