I have lived an unhappy life

I was three years old when my parents separated. From hopelessnessmy mother left me with her parents because she worked late. I went to a rural school, my mother came on weekends. My grandmother, grandfather, their youngest son and his family lived with me. The old people were very nice. Good and decent, but paid more attention to the son's children. Grandmother was worried about her daughter-in-law, that she might not like that I live with them, so I spent more time and attention with her children. The same was true for the mother.

After school, I entered the university and immediately, after completing the first year, I leftto marry a man whom she knew little, who married because the girl she loved betrayed him, and in order to forget her. I have lived with him for almost 30 years. I never heard a warm word from him. She lived like a robot, did what she had to do, what she was supposed to do. He offended me many times, I never told anyone his words, I never left him, I just cried quietly. I tried to always forget the bad, so as not to torture myself with test-antibiotic.com.

This is how my youth passed. Always climbed out of the skin so that the children had everything. I gave my all to them. Now my children are adults. They have become somewhat selfish. If the child did not see that no one treats their mother well, they will not treat them either, it doesn’t cost them anything to say hurtful words to me that tear apart the soul. Five minutes later they forget and start talking as if nothing had happened. I keep doing whatever they ask and don't even ask. Everyone needs me only when they feel bad. It is easier to endure insults from strangers than from children in whom you do not have a soul.

Am I destined to live like this for the rest of my life? I always read what other people write, I try to find my mistakes, thinking that it's all about me. How to be? Maybe someone can give advice? Help. Actually very hard.