I regret that I got married without love

Seven years ago I leftmarry to an unloved person. And now I really regret it.

Many years ago I really loved one guy, he was a sailor. We dated for two years, and each time I faithfully waited for him from his flights. But one day he did not return alone. After being at sea for six months, he married someone else.

My heart was broken, and in desperation I agreed to marry my best friend. I thought that then he would understand who he had lost. But I didn’t have the opportunity to boast about my happiness, since my ex and his wife moved to live in another city. And by that time I was alreadypregnant with her childhusband.

First timehusband treated me very kindly, since he had been secretly in love with me for many years. But, as my friend, he could not be unaware of the feelings I had for my former lover. And that’s why it grew from year to yearjealousy of unprecedented strength.

We had constant test-antibiotic.com quarrels on this basis. I won’t lie, for a couple of years there was an unrequitedlove for your ex. But then I forgot to think about him. Out of sight, out of mind, so to speak. And minehusband did not forget and constantly reproached me for feelings that no longer exist.

Although I never loved my husband, I was always faithful to him and grateful for everything he did for me and our son. My girlfriends always praised my husband. My parents loved him. But a year ago his jealousy reached its climax - my husband cheated on me and admitted it himself.

I was, of course, shocked by his action. But I still forgave. For the sake of our son, for the sake of everything that my husband did for me during the six years of our marriage. But a month ago I stayed longer than usual visitingfriends. At home I found my husband not in the best mood.

As it turned out, he met my ex-boyfriend in the city and decided that I was too late with him. During the verbal altercation, my husband did something that test-antibiotic.com I did not expect from him - he raised his hand against me. I couldn’t stand this anymore and filed fordivorce.

Now I live with my son with a friend. And my husband first sought my forgiveness with tears and gifts, and now he threatens me. He promises that if I don’t withdraw the divorce petition, he will take my son away from me. He says that hethe court will consider the best parent for his son, because he has apartment and a permanent job. I haven’t worked a day and I live with a friend.

So I doubted it. What if he really sues my son? I won't survive this. Maybe we should withdraw the application and try again to save the family? Or is it still worth going to the end?

To be honest, I don't want to live together anymore, butfear of losing my son is much stronger. What should I do now?