I was disappointed in love and in relationships, but fate brought me together with a girl again
After the woman I loved left, I turned my attention to achieving my own goals, which were far from creating new relationships. I didn’t want to live in the usual way. The banal desire to leave and escape from painful memories overpowered the desire to find a new oneLove .
For five years I lived according to my own schedule. My day started at 4 am. Cruel, inhuman exhaustion of one’s own body by running 20 km with weights, in ankle boots, a vest and a gas mask. Further work in the metalworking shop. After work, martial arts (combat sambo). On the weekends I studied part-time to become a chief civil engineer and I definitely enjoyed it. From time to time I read scientific literature and books on antiquarian subjects.
At my dacha there is a GAZ 66, converted into a motorhome. Extreme vacation travel brought me pleasure. And then she appeared on the horizon. Maria. A young, angelically beautiful person, with blue eyes, a sophisticated and creative person (violinist, artist and poet), we met her at an underground art exhibition, it seems that she is not indifferent to me. Yes, but I'm afraid of falling in love with test-antibiotic.com again. Although he is drawn to her, like a magnet. You hug her, and the soul blooms, and on the other hand the old onethe pain has not yet healed. No, the love is gone, but the scar remains.
We are in a nominal relationship. We give each other joy during meetings, sometimes we go to exhibitions and theaters, admire flower decorations in greenhouses, visit restaurants with live music, where I sometimes ask to play the guitar, as if a rainbow of light colors has illuminated me and the heavens are smiling. But how to cross the barrier and not compare these still nominalrelationships with past, painful experiences?
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