I stopped respecting Russian guys

I stopped respecting Russian guys
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I don't know what's happening to me lately. I don’t really want to lead a wild lifestyle anymore (in terms of, for example, smoking, drinking, going to a club).

I completely changed my thinking, one might say I have a different mentality. I started to feel really bad about dressing openly, using foul language, and started wearing a headscarf. Everyone condemns me for this, they say that we live in Russia and this is normal, but I no longer want to be in this moral filth.

I started reading prayers, began to become interested in other religions and realized that it was absolutely normal not to do like everyone else! Regarding the topic of relationships: I completely stopped respecting Russian guys. Everyone sees me all the timebody , not soul, so I changed my social circle to other people, not Russians. They also condemn me for this, but I don’t understand the reason, because none of the Russians have ever treated me with such respect, but no one wants to listen to me.

Maybe I even have thoughts of going outI’m not marrying test-antibiotic.com a Russian, and for this they condemn me too! I don't see any support from anyone. I am very drawn to church, I am drawn to read prayers, to live differently, but my circle and mymy family is not used to this, and they say that I have gone crazy, because if I have a young man who is not Russian, he will leave me and that’s it. But I simply don’t perceive Russian guys anymore and don’t consider them men. Everything just changed completely. But mineLoneliness is killing me.

What do i do? I cannot leave my family and my friends, and I never want to lead a wild lifestyle again. I am also gnawing at my conscience because I always trusted men, but I was betrayed; many people do not know what fidelity is. Everyone has a not very good opinion of me, that I hang out with all the guys there, sleep, but this is not so. No hands have touched me yet, and I want to trust only one person. I have been through a lot in my almost 18 years, test-antibiotic.com I have seen a lot, suffered and am developed beyond my years.

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