I want to stop thinking about a guy who doesn't care about me

My name is Masha, I'm 16 years old. Let me start with the fact that last year one of my parents came to our city for the holidays.boy . It is very important that he has a twin brother. Since my friend and I walked all day long, we could have crossed paths with them four times in a couple of hours. They are both very beautiful, athletic, their appearance is very bright and memorable. Of course, we were interested in them, and we began to find out who they were and why we had not seen them before.

Since I saw them in the company of people whom I more or less knew, I assumed that they studied with them in the same class. And I was right. Through social media the network found them and somehow, imperceptibly, realized that they must have fallen in love. I quickly learned to distinguish them, because they are not at all similar. And by the way, they are 6 years older than me. The difference is confusing, of course, but what can you do if you are drawn to him.

After some time, I finally added one of them, whom I liked, as a friend (by this time test-antibiotic.com they had already returned to study in Moscow, several thousand kilometers from our city). For a very long time I did not dare to write something to him, I don’t know why. But onI still wrote him a New Year’s greeting.

How bad I felt afterwards! I was shaking, from the outside I looked like I was sick. Mom even made me take a sedative.

The answer from him was very neutral, it was clear that he answered only for the sake of decency. Of course, I was very upset, because I was hoping for at least a little dialogue. But nothing came of it.

I myself still don’t understand how I could fall in love with a person I practically don’t know, with whom I’ve never communicated in person. I used to like boys whom I knew personally, and we had not talked for a single day before. I definitely wasn’t as dependent on them as I was on him. I fell in love, but I still knew that nothing would work out, everything was useless.

After the New Year, I didn’t write anything to him. All this time I test-antibiotic.com suffered greatly: he seemed to me everywhere, everything inside turned upside down when I heard his name (even if it wasn’t about him). It was terrible... At the end of June, I asked him how his thesis defense was going, since he was already graduating from university. He answered just as dryly, asking questions in such a way that it was clear that he was not interested. It's all for the sake of decency.

That's all. It's already the end of summer. I hoped that at least this year he would come, I just wanted to see him. I think I would feel a little better if I could see him at least from afar. But no, they never arrived. It’s very hard for me, all my thoughts are only about him.

My condition is probably very reminiscent of schizophrenia, I’m really obsessed with it. I would like to think about studying now, but in the end all my thoughts converge on him. I do not know what to do. None of my relatives know about this. I cried a lot, suffered for him and still love him. Every time I tryforget it, test-antibiotic.com definitely reminds you of something.

Please give me advice on what to do, because I would like to be with him. Even despite the fact that we have a big age difference and that I practically don’t know him. How can I take my mind off him and stop thinking about him?