I'm tired of my ill-mannered children

The story of hating my own son gave me the idea to share mine. My twins are already sick of me, I also had a caesarean section and it was very difficult for me to get them. I seem to love them, but they are always breaking everything, smashing everything, touching things that are not supposed to, spilling water everywhere, constantly playing with water in the bathroom (and here where we live, it hardly ever rains and water is expensive).

The food is always on the floor, the juices are sticky, I’m constantly grinding, everything constantly falls out of their hands, they make noise, never shut up, don’t listen, you have to call one of them four times, otherwise they won’t listen.

Children make dirt everywhere, study poorly and unwillingly, they are deliberately sloppy in the toilet, they constantly throw things from the window, the walls have been repaired, there are more holes. The bed is new, made to order, but the rim has already been torn off, the entire wall in the hallway was painted with a marker, they covered it up as best they could, but it’s still clear that it needs to be painted.

The curtains were torn both in the hall and in their room, the rope from the blinds was torn, the trash from the food eaten was also scattered in the corners of the house, they constantly carried food from the refrigerator and scattered everything around the apartment. One of them glued my sister’s chewing gum to the ceiling of the car; they take matches if they see them and burn them even in a wooden house, throwing them on the floor. It happened at my sister’s dacha once, and at our house they also climbed high and took matches, I don’t know where to hide from them anymore, they’ll climb to the very top, there’s nothing to hide. The two of us constantly fight over one item, they steal, they lie, I constantly blame each other, as soon as I clean up, after 5 minutes they will dirty everything again, they follow me and get dirty, even when they rush around and don’t let me wash the floors.

After 7 years, I’m tired of yelling at them so much and doing everything for them, but there’s no return, just troubles, too.My husband is always on business trips and also when he is at home, I am more reserved and my husband scolds them. After the birth of twins, my husband and I fight, he blames me for everything. Like, I spoiled them too much and they are so uneducated. And I’m tired of telling them the same thing, punishing them, but they still don’t listen. It's simply unbearable. I also tell them that it’s minelove with their behavior turns into hatred for them. And that I will soon die from stress and disappointment in them. I'll get sick and die.

I expect them to grow up and leave home. What can you do here? What you get, you have to grow. My twins get it, but it doesn’t help. Now she has begun to punish and deprive them of what they like most. TV, video games, bike rides, even my hugs sometimes. How to love them? And heremy daughter is smart and obedient, a good, smart girl, I love her and in general I can tolerate anything from her, because she didn’t bring me that many troubles even at a young age. And these two boys always manage to do things that make your hair stand on end.