Я уже не жду поддержки от окружающих
Мне надоело все! Хочется просто закрыться в комнате, либо сбежать в то место, где меня никто не найдет. Каждый раз меня используют как человека, которому можно выговориться, который сможет потом поддержать. А стоит начать выговариваться мне, я только и слышу – «да не обращай ты внимание на них», «надоела ныть уже». Почему я должна всех мирить и за всех бояться. Я прекрасно понимаю, что со мной не все в порядке, не бывает такого, чтобы у кого-то было все в порядке. От этого и страшно.
Я работаю на открытой кухне, и с каждым разом мне все сложнее и сложнее. Я пыталась поменять работу, но из-за того, что я молодая, никто не берёт, считая, что нет опыта, буду отлынивать. Почему я должна делать вид, что у меня все хорошо, когда мне действительно плохо. Почему все считают, что человек должен быть постоянно в шикарном настроении? Надоело это выслушивать в свою сторону уже. Надоело выслушивать: «ты посмотри на других, они ведь не жалуются», «почему ты не такая как все test-antibiotic.com они».
Начиная с 5 класса (2010 год), меня постоянно гнобили из-за веса, даже родители. Из-за этого появилось много комплексов. Начала голодать, скинула более 5 кг разом, меньше чем за неделю. Что в итоге? Слышу: «Зачем ты похудела? Хочешь быть похожа на тех девчонок, которые на доску смахивают? Зачем ты пытаешься подстроиться под стандарты красоты».
Надоело, просто надоело. Не хочу больше никому ничего говорить, с кем-то спорить, кого-то выслушивать, в том числе и его проблемы. Просто хочу найти человека, который просто подойдёт и скажет: «не унывай, у тебя все получится, тебе надо немного потерпеть, ты справишься».
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