Отношения как в аду
Пишу, как и многие авторы историй на вашем сайте, не о самой оптимистичной и светлой истории.
Знал ли кто-то из вас, что значит быть с человеком как отбывать срок? Я имею в виду боль от неприятия каких-то черт этого человека. И в то же время парализующий страх расстаться с ним, этим человеком, так как он первый в этой жизни, кто не лгал, кто заботился, не предавал, мог научить и выслушать. С кем двое чудесных детей маленького возраста, а также тысячи счастливых, парадоксально полной мужско-женской несовместимости, минут на двоих. Долго рассказывать, как и почему влипла в эти отношения и почему в них осталась.
Абсолютно двойственное отношение ко всему: бежать и освободить себя от чувства вины, а его – от чувства не любимого, а с другой стороны бороться и во что бы то ни стало перестроить себя и свои чувства под этого достойного, первого и, возможно, последнего встретившегося мне человека.
Вот в таком локальном аду и живу уже много лет. Врагу не пожелала бы. Интересно ваше test-antibiotic.com мнение.
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