I feel like a black sheep
I am a second-year student, and I lead a fairly active lifestyle, I am not afraid to make first acquaintances and communicate.
But I have a problem with maintaining communication, moving to the level of trust. I don't know how to structure this part of communication. Most likely, the subconscious knows, but because of the fear of not being understood, or the fear of being rejected and ridiculed, I cannot do any of this.
Hence depression, lack of self-confidence, and lack of fulfillment. I repeat, I have many acquaintances, but from close relationships (not relatives) only one, but there the initiative comes from the person himself, and I don’t think that this is a real friend.
I’m usually afraid of seeming intrusive or uninteresting. I think the rootproblems from school. There I tried to study, was excellent, took part in performances, went to art school. But envious classmates began to hate me, and there were no like-minded people (or I simply closed in on myself). It seemed to me then that I was a black sheep. And yes, I havethe habit of thinking and analyzing everything, which is very disturbing.
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